My friend gave me a picture frame that says "Motherhood -the greatest gift, the sweetest joy in life" I think it is so true. I want to put the above picture in that frame. I know how quick babyhood goes by. So I am enjoying it for all that it is, trying to stay in the moment.
Every day I just look at little Kai and I am aware, present and always filled with joy at the site of our beautiful boy. It is so true that having a baby changes your life more than you can imagine it. Before Kai that statement always worried me a bit, but not anymore. Kai changed my life in all good ways, giving me the deepest joy and the deepest love that I have ever felt.
Little Kai is extremely observant. He always likes to look around.. so the bassinet on our stroller just wasn't doing it for our walks. I wanted a carrier that was easier than the ergo, were he could sit upright. I am sure the Ergo will be great when he is 15 lbs and can sit upright. In the mean time I just did not like the infant insert- he has to lie sideways, always looked squashed and couldn't look around. I wish I had the becco from the beginning! It has an infant insert that is just like a extra pocket holding him up higher and it can be used when baby is only 7lbs. It is very similar in shape to the ergo, but I find it a little easier to put on myself. It does have a panel of fabric between mom and baby, which some may not like- but that makes it very easy to transfer baby from one person to another. There are also lots of patterns to pick from. Kai loves it. During our walks he looks around and turns his head from side to side and eventually gets sleeping and falls asleep.
One thing I wanted to add after using the carrier frequently the past couple weeks. It doesn't fit my husband's shoulders, he can squeeze it on but it isn't comfortable and the straps don't allow for any further adjustment. But we still love it and use it all the time. It seems they should allow for more adjustment of all of the straps though.
***Update for babies over 15 pounds my favorite carrier is the Ergo Organic. It is similar to the Becco but I find the material much softer and the buckles of better quality. Plus it can be adjusted more for my husband to wear. For both carriers it is good to play around with the placement of the bottom strap around your waist. If you put it in the wrong place it can be uncomfortable.
Update: Still no long chunks of sleep... We went to the park the other day, before it got all smokey from the fires. Kai was amazed by all the circles on the blanket. He loves patterns, just like his mama..
I was thinking about the last post.. it is not that Kai is fussy.. He is not. Actually he is quite delightful and always smiling so so much. He is so aware of everything, loves to observe and has so much energy. It's this mama who is fussy..haha. It is so hard to get by on so little sleep, and I hardly ever nap.
It's just that Kai doesn't sleep! It seems like he doesn't need to sleep more than a two or three hour chunk of time at night. His day time naps have lately been about an hour. Luckily when he does wake up every two hours or so at night he feeds for a short time- less than ten minutes (he always feeds less than 10 minutes, although it is getting a little longer lately) then he falls fast asleep. Everyone tells me he will begin to sleep more sometime in the future, even though it seems like he never will!
It is funny, I have been going to breast feeding support groups and mommy and me class and the other mamas complain about their baby sleeping and then when asked how long the baby sleeps they say only 5 or only 7 hours a night! I am like oh man, I just pray for my baby to start sleeping 4 hours at a time!! It is great to get out and go to the classes though. It's just good being around other mamas and getting out of the house. Kai seems to love going also.
He also loves his baths and is getting great head control.. as he can lift up his head now..
The more time goes on it is seeming like the latter. Poor little Kai has been having a rough time with his digestive system the last week. First last week I had a risotto with mushrooms and truffles. The next day I (with a horrible digestive system myself) had a grumbly upset digestive system. Kai seemed uncomfortable and when I had my hand on my stomach I could feel it moving around and grumbling and making a lot of noise. Then he had a couple really big diapers with streaks of blood in it. The next day when I took him to the doctor it turned out he had anal fissures..aww little cuts around his butt. From straining or pooping a lot.
The next day I decided ok I have to start the elimination diet. I had already been avoiding certain foods because I suspected they bothered him early on- foods like milk and eggs. But this elimination diet you are supposed to eat turkey, lamb, squash, potatoes and pears. I can't do the lamb. Yuck. It's hard for me to eat meat being a vegetarian for so long. So I had the turkey. That turned out to be a mistake.. the next day Kai was spitting up much more than usual, pretty much most of every meal, and his butt was bright red like it has never been before. He was also a little fussier. Ok no turkey for him. It took him a couple days to get over that.
Then yesterday we gave him a bottle from breast milk pumped last month- also turned out to be a bad idea. I think I was eating dairy then. He woke up many times last night, crying in pain, farting and pooing. Poor little man. He has also had a stuffy nose for a month that doesn't seem to help with the sleep. The nose drops and vaporizer are not much help. As I am seeing how much foods I eat truly bother him I am also noticing a connection with the very short sleep periods. I am going to continue to keep track of what seems to bother him, without doing the elimination diet.
Through all the digestive problems he is still such a smiley little man.. as soon as the discomfort seems to subsides he is smiling all the time. We love him so much..
Kai continues to amaze me.. growing at the speed of light.. In the last nine days he gained 13 oz and 3/4's of an inch. Now he weighs 12.9 lbs ( probably even more now that was from a couple days ago) and is 24 3/4" It's hard to imagine that this babe:
Was this baby just two months ago:
I guess I am not too shocked at his growth when I consider how often he eats and still eats- Every two hours, even at night most of the time. I was a little frustrated when I heard how other babies his age and younger sleep much longer.. 5, 6 or 7 hours at a time. I thought by now he would be sleeping longer. Usually he sleeps one time at night for three hours, but not always. Last night he did not. Once in a blue moon he will sleep 4 hours in a row. I realized that I just have to forget what other babies are doing to keep my sanity and stay positive. If there is one thing I learned from my pregnancy and labor it is that things never happen the textbook way with Kai and I..every baby is so individual. He is doing what he needs to do to grow and thrive and I know in time he will sleep more. As long as he is healthy and happy. This time will pass so fast.. I know that. Time to feed the babe...